So a few weeks ago, I left my husband. The reasons are many and varied. It has probably been one of the most difficutlt decisions I have ever made. But here's the thing, I know that I did the right thing. If I knew a year ago or even 7 months ago when we got married what I know now, I would have never have married him. I beat myself up on a daily basis for having even gotten involved with such a person. And now here's the kicker, I am 15 weeks pregnant. How is this fair to my unborn child that they won't have both parents? I know that there are lots of single parents out there and raising kids on their own. My Grandma was one of them. But I was raised with both parents and I want that for my child. Unfortunately due to choices that were made by both parents (because I know that I am not completely innocent of my marriage falling apart, it does take two after all) my child will now be with a single parent. Will it be hard. Yes it will. But I don't want to stay in a relationship that is unhealthy and bad for me just because of a child. It's not fair to me or my child to make ourselves miserable.
So here's what I am going to do. I am starting this blog to dicuss my feelings and the things that I go through almost on a daily basis. I am filing for divorce. I am going to take some birth classes. I just have a whole plan of things that I am going to do. And yes that does include trying to find a job for the next school year. So here goes.
Summer
